Single again

Just met my husbands girlfriend and I can't believe what I saw.
Man if your going to cheat at least make sure that she has something to offer other then some booty. I mean come on. This woman was ugly with a bunch of kids and nothing to offer. I might not be drop dead gorgeous but I looked alot better then she did. Why do men cheat I don't understand it in the least. I am so pissed off right now. And the sad part is he couldn't even look me in the eyes over this shit. The stupid shit that he did I can't believe that I put up with it.

Aggravated

Why I put up with what I put up with I will never understand. I geta phone call this morning from darrell and I get yelled at for not calling when his phone was turned off. Does this make any sense to anyone and I'm just crazy??? Why is it that a man can do as he pleases and damn the consequences? I don't understand. The way he treats me it's amazing I still love him but that is my big problem... I keep praying that he will change and I know that he won't but theres no amount of words that will convince my heart of that so what do I do about it?? Sometimes I wish that I was a butterfly and I can live for a day and be happy about it.
I know that life is suppise to be full of challenges and we suppose to work for every thing but I just wish that this part of my life wasn't so hard.